I am waiting for a break. I have been waiting for 9 months. My friend and her family need a break, a little good news. All of us are doing the right things. We have faith, courage, hope, positive mental attitude, the strength of a massive army. But I am starting to panic and I am looking for a sign that God is listening to the massive amount of prayers we are all sending.
I find myself in a situation I have never been in. Sometimes I feel like I have to work to smile and laugh. On occasion I find myself tearing up in random places. One minute I am fine, the next minute I am overcome by frustration, grief, concern, anger, and most of all fear. (I think many of us are feeling this way). Sometimes I think I am having panic attacks. I am on a road in which I have no control, and I am not good at that. I have no idea what the future holds and I am trying to get it together. I am trying to trust in a higher power to fix what I can’t.
Everyday I have to keep reminding myself: Breathe…Stay Calm…You are alright…Everyone is going to be alright…Today is a gift; Don’t waste it.